Guys

Today i had a group conversation, and we discussed the psychological mind of a guy. Guys r sensitive...and i mean...REALLY REALLY sensitive. When guys fall in love....they really do fall in love....when i say love, i mean love, no not love as in "OMG she's hot"but i mean...i love you with all my heart. Guys don't show their feeling very well...but every little thing really affects them. Something as simple as "i love you" everyday is very VERY meaningful to us. We just don't show it very well cuz..i guess we're just guys, but we do feel it. When a guy is emotionally hurt....He really is hurting. I learned today that...as guys we don't like to share our pains especially when our pains come from the one we love. It's just incrediblely hard for us to tell them that they hurt us. To us....the one we love is perfect in everyway. Even their imperfections are perfect. I'm gonna miss you guys...thanks so much for that last meaningful conversation!! ♥

Weakness - Understanding

Y am i so weak?....i seemed so strong on the outside but inside...i'm still just a child. I've been in this world for nearly 16 years and i've seen many things that's corrupted me. Now when i'm in love...that's when i finally realized my greatest weakness of all.  My love for you is all, and that's the cause of my fall. My love has blinded me in a mind full of fantasy and dreams. It always hurts when i'm not with you. Your every action seems to have an effect on me no matter the size of the matter. I don't know what to do anymore, i just can't seem to get a grip on my emotions. I'm always having random mood swings, that consists of THE HAPPIEST GUY ON EARTH, to completely depressed and breakdown. I love you to the point where...all my strength is transfered to you. Just the thoughts of you bring me both joy and loneliness. I just can't understand anything anymore....I could help anyone in the world with their problems but my own. All my dreams, hopes, companionships, even family....don't really matter to me as much as you. I tell this truth as i always feel this way, yet i still don't understand y i feel these other emotions. Sometimes i wish i could be stronger for you. Mi Amor..I love you 

Confusion

Confusion can lead to many unwanted pains.  It's what life is made of, and it's always around no matter what you do. Me, i focus on everything, which can be both good and bad. My curiosity leads to my confusion in life. i love learning new things, and sometime search endlessly for an answer to question but like most... some times the answer is not something you would like to discover O_O , but it does make you understand things and that's just how we all learn ;) 

wow.....first blog in so looooong XD 

2010 plans :)

Well...its time to make amends and start anew. This year, i'm gonna try harder to be closer to my friends and family. I'm also gonna try to get better grades along with doin more open activities with the people i care about. Last year, i felt more separated from the people that i care about that ever before...i'm gonna try to change that. I hope that w/e anyones plans are for this year will succeed and may good fortune follow you and those that you care about :)

CHRISTMAS!!

Christmas for the second time in my life is a White Christmas. I love spending time with my family just enjoying a road trip around the country side. Life just seems to bounce up this time of year for me. HOPE EVERYONE'S HAD LOTS OF LOVE AND FUN THIS SEASON :)

BLEEDING LOVE

Basically just the lyrics to the famous song "bleeding love" by Leona Lewis. I wanted to make this cuz this song inspired me to open my heart up and to show my feelings to a special person i should've loved awhile ago <3

Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh, they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love